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christian basicsThe answer to the question in the title is “me”. It could be ‘ne, myself and I’, or, as in Struans’ post about sources of theology, it could be ‘me, tradition, Scripture’ – which is another way of expressing the classic Anglican ‘three-legged stool’ – reason, Scripture and tradition.  We all do it, even those who say they rely on the authority of their Church; that is a choice they have made, with their reason. So, if we take our friend quiavideruntoculi, who regards his present Pope and half the Congregation for the Defence of the Faith as hopeless modernists, cleaves to the truth of Catholic teaching. How does he find this? He uses his own reason to tell him that some of the leaders of his church are in error, but that by his own researches he can discern the true tradition; so so we all, so do we all.

Even if we are born into a tradition, we make the choice to stay in it. We are given free-will by Our Heavenly Father, and any attempt to shift that to someone else, fails.  It may well have been (as it was in my case) my mother who took me to chapel, and my mother and grandmother who encouraged my desire to know more about Jesus, but then I was a child and I thought as a child. When I became a man (indeed before then) there were plenty willing to tell me otherwise, and being the sort of person who is interested in ideas, I was happy to investigate what my secular/atheist contemporaries assured me was a more rational way of looking at the world. It made no appeal to me and I rejected it as based on a particularly reductionist form of rationalism. I recall asking a friend at college who was hot on this sort of thing, how he could be sure his girlfriend loved him and was faithful to him, and he answered that he believed it was so, his instincts and feeling told him so; well, my instincts and feelings told me God existed, so he could love his girlfriend for reasons he could not quantify, and I could love God on the same grounds. That wasn’t to say I had no reason for the hope that was in me. The more I studied Scripture and early Church history, the clearer it became that the Gospel accounts deserved to be believed.

So, as a fully-functioning adult, I made a choice. I can say in a sense I had no choice because I have always felt the closeness and reality of God. He’s there for me like gravity is.. But I still had the choice of rejecting His teaching.  There were certainly times when it seemed irksome to my younger self to confine myself to the one woman I married, and it may well have been (with more excuse) the same for Mrs S. But we didn’t give in to temptation; we’d made holy vows to each other and we kept them. Would I if I had not been a Christian? I don’t know, but I do know that being a Christian was a great help in the face of temptation.

Who am I to judge? I am the person who will stand one day before the Lord to be judged on how I have used the life and the gifts he has given me, and I don’t feel it would be a very convincing report to say: ‘Well, Lord, he told me it was OK.’ I feel the Lord might well ask me why I hadn’t used the brains he gave me. Who I am? I am the one who will have to answer for what I have believed and why I believed it. So are you.